Long time no post...

It's been such a long time since I posted on here. That's pretty bad, really. But I've decided, with a hint from Jasmine Star , to just write. Whatever happens, not just photo stuff (which was the original plan!).

Yes, things have moved on from just photography these days. Firstly, SJ and I bought a house. Our first! This meant a relocation (again), but hopefully it will be a pretty permanent one this time... hopefully.

We're now living in a small town in Shropshire, where a lot of our family and friends live. SJ has a job working with disabled young adults, which is all very new and exciting for him. 

I'm not exactly lost, but feel like I'm being pulled in all directions a little. I've always wanted to do lots of music. I've wanted to do photography for years. And now I'm going to do childminding! Yes, an interesting mix. The plan at the mo is to start up this childminding business to fill the week, as it were. Then I'll be getting pretty involved in the church's music (whoopee!) which may or may not lead to better things, but WILL lead to a better involvement and love for the church. Then photography, well, the only photography I really LOVE is weddings and spontaneous shoots, but I don't feel like I could do that full time in this area. SO the simple-haven't-really-given-it-the-thought-it-deserves plan is to advertise as a wedding and natural portrait weekend photographer. After all, most weddings seem to be on Saturdays.... yeaaah anyway, this is the plan.

I just can't give photography up, and the music is sticking in church for now, and... yeah, I'm sort of chickening out by choosing to do childminding. Well, sort of. I know I will absolutely LOVE it, which helps. ;) But it still seems a little bit of a chicken move compared with my original ideas of photography business mixed with being a successful worship band... 

I guess the thing is that I just don't love studio work enough. And I don't know how to do it without a studio. I mean, I DO, but heck, hard work or what! Perhaps I could do it, in the future, but not now. The thing is, I still feel too young. I make all this stuff up as I go, and everyone thinks it's all great and amazing but it really isn't! It's all a show! 

But anyone who knows anything about music will know that that's all a show too, so perhaps it's just in my nature to seem much better than I am. Well, I say that, but then I surprise myself with what I do. 

Maybe, just maybe, by pretending I'm better than I THINK I am actually brings out the best in me.

So, I'm going to just swing along and see what happens at the moment. I really want to have a reason to pick up my camera more than I do at the moment. Someone give me a tip? 

I know what God says about all this: follow your heart, follow Me, DO NOT BE AFRAID. That was the message I felt in my heart sitting in a pew on Sunday. So I've got to remember that. 

Do not be afraid. God is with you. You can do anything.